3 things I’ve learned since starting med school

i haven’t written for this blog in so so long. the day i started school till now went by so fast and i am having a very uneasy feeling about it. i’m usually so good about being intentional and mindful but lately i’ve been living the same day over and over again and stopped doing the little things. i stopped noticing how blue the sky is, the texture of my skin, how much water i drink, and so much more. but i did learn a lot about myself and the past couple of months have felt like a dream. everything i’ve always wanted have manifested into reality and sometimes i forget that. But anywayssss here are three things i have learned since starting school 

1. Your current situation is not permanent 

everything, all the difficulties, will sooner or later pass. you will come out on top. of course it’ll feel terrible when you’re going thru it (and you should pls pls allow yourself to feel every emotion of it) at that very specific moment, but it will pass. all the impossible difficulties to overcome become nothing if you reflect and act accordingly. once you surpass them, you realize how much time you wasted worrying about them. better days are ahead. good things take time, and everything that is happening to you right now is preparing yourself for that imminent breakthrough. if you truly believe that, then the challenges you experience have found a new context, and the hard times are more merely just a storm and chaos before the calm. the best is yet to come

2. You will always feel behind
   

med school really is a powerful hose. the water comes out all at once with full pressure. i literally felt so behind after week one. i was constantly stressing over keeping up with material that i would even use my weekends to stay afloat and on top of things. but it got in the way of my social life and i decided watching those lectures (that i will most likely not process) is not worth the memories i could have made with my loved ones. so i decided to stop worrying and stressing. and i truly felt so much relief when i finally decided i was okay with feeling behind. no matter how much effort or studying i did ahead of time – i still felt behind. so i stopped trying so hard and let go even if that did mean i was falling behind and you know whaaat, i was okay with it. i was okay with it because i knew when the time came, i would pull thru and do what i needed to do. i trust myself and have so much faith in my work ethic. i’d rather watch two hours of tv instead of doing a lecture if that made me feel more at ease. and at the end of the day it turns out perfectly okay because everything works out for me 

3. You need a life outside school or work

there is no way i would be sane if i decided to dedicate my entire life to studying. oh helllll no. i need my friends, my picnics, my movie nights w my parents, my hobbies, my self care rituals, concerts, girl nights, etc. if i am being honest i have gone out more during med school than i have in my entire life and i am still figuring out the balance – but it’s there! yes i am passionate about medicine but it doesn’t mean i can’t be multi-passionated. it’s even more amazing when you can combine your passions to do something you love. i have goals outside of school that i want to accomplish (and best believe i will accomplish them). the practice of putting your focus and energy on multiple areas instead of one can be one of the most healthiest things you can do for yourself  

anyways you might or might not agree with what i say and that is totally okay!! these are just my thoughts and opinions hehe but like my bio says – i am just a silly little girly navigating her silly little 20’s in a transparent and gentle way <33